A Witch, A Mystic & A Feminist Say Goodbye - Final Episode

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well, this is the quietest you guys have been, I know I know I was just thinking.

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So we I had a question actually we had.

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So far we've had 88 published episodes that's correct so it'll be 90 total.

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It'll be 90 total.

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Okay, that's what I total.

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Okay, that's what I thought, yeah.

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So I was like, oh, geez, that's a lot it is.

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That's a lot of like, that's a lot of content, that's a lot of hours and days and a lot of work.

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Yeah, I'm like astonished, that's a pretty big number for podcasts.

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It is yeah, yeah, well, in almost three full seasons yeah, almost, yeah Well, in almost three full seasons, almost.

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Yeah, so around this time was when we were recording.

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Do you remember that, though, we were doing practice recordings and we're like, oh, and the cringe that we felt and the fear.

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I don't know if I want to do this Absolutely.

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Yeah, I know, wasn't it like?

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Oh, go ahead, christy.

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I was just gonna say, and I I just remember like we'd be on Riverside for like three four hours at a time, and I remember, I remember when we were first like starting.

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we're like oh yeah, it'll only be like an hour, you know.

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Then, like four hours later, we're still like.

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We're like did we get it?

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Yeah, I don't know, did we get something?

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yeah and I just kept thinking, oh god, poor mom, that's a long one.

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And then towards the end, we tried to shorten them Right.

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And then it was like, yes, we kept watching the clock.

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We're like, okay, we're at that point, okay, so going in the air swirling.

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We're like, yeah, time to wrap it up, let's go.

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This is, um, wow, such a moment.

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I don't.

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I don't know about you, ladies or Lane, if you want to explain what, uh, what's coming to a moment.

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I don't know about you, ladies or Lane, if you want to explain what's coming to a pause.

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Yeah.

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So you know, after these last few years or how long has it been?

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Two years, three years, two years, two years, almost two full years we have decided to I don't want to say end the podcast, but end the podcast.

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Well, our lives have all kind of transformed and morphed from what they were when we started it, and some of us have gotten a lot busier and taken on more responsibilities in our careers, and then, as is always with momming, you know, parenting and life and all that has gotten more.

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And so you know, yeah, I think I think pausing it is absolutely right, because I don't think any one of us would hesitate to record again.

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You know, um, if we, yeah, if we had the, the, the content and the time.

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But we've all, like Marlena, we've, we've talked about it, the four of us that we just want to put out great content and we've kind of gotten to a stalemate with that lately.

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We're in that hangman.

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That is so true.

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Well, and I think for me and on this show we've talked about it so much the imposter syndrome, right, and we work through that and we know it can creep back in and creep back out, and but for me, lately, for myself, I have felt like an imposter, if you will, because it's just my focus hasn't been on my spiritual journey, on my myself lately, just with everything going on in my household the husband, who's traveling again, and the kids and just life.

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Like you said, christy, it's just a lot.

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And so when I would come on Sundays, when we would record, I'm always excited because one I get to see you guys all and with our busy lives, this has been like our scheduled meeting visit every month for the week, but sitting down and doing the topics and really trying to be in it for me, I felt like, okay, I'm not even in the right headspace right now, like I I'm not there.

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So, as excited as I am to interview our guests and learn, I just kind of felt like, okay, I feel like I'm just not, I'm not in that space, I don't feel like I'm there and I don't ever.

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I think Lane, you even said it when we discussed this like I don't want to feel like there's a hidden agenda with the show and for me right now, it's just not where my head is.

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We know things come and go, just like people do, in and out of our lives for a reason, and this show for me really came in at a time that I needed it.

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I think that happened for all of us.

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Yeah exactly At the time that we needed it, and I'm really proud of us and you know what we've put out and really excited about the people that we've met throughout the years.

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I have now excellent mentors and friends that I wouldn't have maybe necessarily met without this podcast, and so that has been amazing.

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That has been amazing.

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But also tools to be able to deal with the shit that life throws at you, because I feel like lately life has just been throwing out a bunch of shit and I've been able to deal with it in a way that maybe I hadn't dealt with it, not maybe I didn't deal with it like this in the past.

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A bunch of shit bombs being thrown lately.

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Yeah, yeah sure, yeah, sure.

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And also being able to teach what I've learned and having that opportunity, which is something that I'm excited about.

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But now, when I meet people and this is something that I'm excited about but now, when I meet people and this is kind of something that I discussed with you guys Every time I meet someone, I feel like there's a hidden agenda oh, I should bring you on the show or I should do this or I should do that, and the show was always in the back of my mind, whereas I really want to meet people just to meet them and hear their story and have those conversations and learn from them, without being like hey, do you want to be on my podcast?

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You know, and and not that that's a bad thing, you know but at the same time, like you know, I, I, I don't want that hidden agenda, right?

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now.

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Right, absolutely, that makes sense, okay.

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So well, do we have a favorite moment we want to discuss?

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And I kept saying three years as we were talking about this, I guess it felt like three years because I keep thinking three seasons, but you're right, and we're approaching.

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We are on our two year anniversary of recording for the first time but released in August.

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So just felt like you know, I thought somebody was going to bring that up, right, you know, like a favorite episode or whatever.

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So I started, I looked at the show and I was looking at all the different podcasts and I was like, all right, I'll write down the ones that were my favorite.

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Well, I ended up with this long list.

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I was like, yeah, that didn't work.

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I know because there's so many favorites.

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Yeah, yeah For different reasons, I mean.

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I know for me like.

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I had my entire family like this has been a family affair.

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My mom produces this, vince has been on the show, alexis has been on the show, my cousins, tony and Ricky have been on the show, and man to watch their transformation has just been, um, it's been amazing, and to be able to watch that in real time and and have those conversations with them has been awesome.

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But you know, like there's been moments with Danielle Kettlewell, where and Christy, I don't know if you remember and Jamie too, but like we didn't want to do any interviews, and I know I didn't want to interview because I was like I don't do this shit, like I do, like I don't know how to do this kind of thing, and so that was one of the first interviews where I was like, oh my God, like one.

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The content is amazing, she's absolutely amazing.

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We nailed this episode, like you know where, where I was kind of on a real big high and then we went to uh, what was that?

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Safari place?

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Um, when you know, and so I was still, so then I was with you that weekend just kind of riding that high.

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That was a lot of fun.

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Yep, that was a lot of fun, yeah, but I mean definitely the the interviewing.

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I I wasn't.

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I wasn't excited about it I don't think any of us were and we didn't want to look like, for lack of better words, dumb right.

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We wanted to sound like we knew you know, we know what we're talking about and we want to sound professional in our interview questions.

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But yet it was very uh, it was very intimidating at first.

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Very intimidating.

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And for everyone out there.

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We did pre-work too, so we would either go look for guests or guests, would you know, contact us, and it was like we set up pre-interviews, you know, we went through the whole thing so it wasn't just like, oh, let's bring this person on.

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So it was a little bit scary, a bit scary, and Marlena was.

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That was pretty cool.

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Yeah, sorry In the, sorry in the beginning, everybody was looking for guests.

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We were looking for guests, but then eventually guests started asking us to be on the podcast.

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So that was.

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That was pretty huge.

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I was like, really, yeah, people are like we're not looking for them, they're looking for us.

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That's amazing, that was like wow.

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For me, that was a moment of wow Because again, my bubble seems to think like we just have this small group of people who are loyal listeners, and always in my brain it's like oh, it's family and friends, you know, but we know our audience had expanded and that was the moment for me that was like wow.

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We are really like people are listening, you know.

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I mean, this is, this is insane, it's crazy, it was like I didn't, I didn't pull the numbers, but we're in like 72 countries somewhere around there that have listened to our podcast.

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So you know, that's, that's amazing, that's like mind blowing to me.

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You would send the statistics.

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Every once in a while I'm like, oh my god, that's crazy.

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How many times has my mom listened to this?

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You know, I don't know she doesn't listen.

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Listen to this, you know I don't know she doesn't listen.

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But the interviews were definitely a huge jump for us in our podcast journey, so got to be really fun.

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We met some great people, for sure.

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Yeah, absolutely Memorable moments, though for me, I kept thinking about it too, and the ones that we've discussed before that have popped into my head, just moments of like, oh my gosh, and I'm so, I'm so horrible with names, so I won't even go into specific episodes, but just just things that would happen.

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So again, our pet psychic and our pet communicator.

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And again, I'm just horrible with names right now Dr Lisa.

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Yes, I'm like drawing a blank, but just those moments where things happened that were very you know people talk about.

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Well, you can explain things away.

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I can't explain that, you know, and I'm a believer anyway, so I'm not going to try to make it science, you know, but it's it really.

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Just those kinds of moments really kind of blew me away.

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And then, of course, learning about new things.

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I had net.

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We remember Akashic records, like me, I remember Christy and we're like is it a record label company?

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What are we doing?

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Are we in a library?

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I thought it was a lawyer thing, actually, when Marlena sent the text.

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I was like is this?

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The wrong group.

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Did she mean to send this to her law group?

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What's the Akashic Records Like?

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I kept thinking she's pulling records.

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Never heard of them.

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And I was like yeah, and I was like am I finally going to get my records?

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This is amazing.

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Like all I had to do was be on a podcast.

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And like they came in, here you are, you're recording with akashic records now I almost spent my.

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That would be a good record label.

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That would be that would be.

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I almost spent my coffee out on my monitor I seriously thought I'm like she must have sent this to the wrong group.

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They have to go pull records in the akic records.

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I don't know what this is, yeah.

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No, but I felt like a lot of our guests and a lot of the topics came at the right time too.

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So you know, just like with this podcast, the guests that would come on and those topics and and the things that they were talking about, you know, really hit home in that moment.

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And so you know, I'm I'm really looking forward to kind of digging in more um and and making more time for my spirituality um and and learning things and kind of focused, because my focus is, you know, was limited.

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Yeah, that's a good point, cause I I'm looking forward to actually taking some of the things from our guests and like trying them, because I also didn't feel like, personally, I had enough time to implement a lot of things that we learned from you know, like things that resonated, and I'm like, oh, yeah, I'd really like to do that, you know, I'd really.

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And then I'd have every intent to do so and it would be like, okay, prepping for the next guy, like okay, moving on, you know, and so I'd be like I'll write a little note and I'm like, okay, like, you know, the moon, like all the moons, so I'm like moon stuff.

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I'm like, uh, yep, okay, someday, someday we'll do that.

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And then I'd be like my next thing, like, and so it was just, it was it became like, well, I'm going to practice these at some point.

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I'm gonna, you know, dive into them at some point.

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Um, and now I'm excited that, like I'm going to be able to do that and hopefully find a modality that works.

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I'm also very proud of our episodes where we addressed community I don't want to say political, but lifestyle.

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We've, you know, we had Hayden on here their journey.

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We also talked about abortion.

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That was a very, you know, moving episode after they overturned Roe v Wade.

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When that happened, I think that impacted us all.

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But those episodes really were raw and open and honest.

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I revealed things that not the whole world knew, even certain family members, and I'm very proud how vulnerable we've allowed ourselves to be with the audience, and I remember we would start recordings and we're like vulnerability Okay, we got to be vulnerable, like it's it can be a lot Like I'm sitting here talking to you know, my dearest friends in the world, but in the end it's going to be put out for the world.

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So, I'm very proud of those episodes and tackling difficult topics sometimes that are hard for people to talk about.

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So those were those really hold dear to my heart too, the ones where we we tackled the big things.

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Yeah, same, same.

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And oh my God, oh my God, and just it's, it's weird that it's, I don't want to say coming to an end, but I mean that we're taking this indefinite break.

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It's possible.

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Yeah, it feels right, I mean.

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It does it, does it does feel right.

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I think we've all kind of started feeling it in the last few months just because of life and things, and I think the timing is right.

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You know I'm sad because I won't get to see you guys every other week, but hopefully we can still schedule a FaceTime or something where we can, you know, catch up.

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But, um, yeah, I it's.

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It's just the right moment for us, yeah, so and I think this podcast has given us each of us what was needed right.

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Given us each of us what was needed Right.

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I mean, I think that I've gained so much from from being a part of this podcast and, uh, towards the end here it's.

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It's kind of seemed like we were just going through the motions, right, and that's when you know that it's like, okay, I think it's time for us to take a step back.

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But yeah, everything that this podcast has given me, but yeah, everything that this podcast has given me, I mean, you don't even know right how much it's given to me.

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So I'm going to stop right there, for right now, I'm going to stop talking real quick, but, yeah, I think the timing is right.

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Yeah, and I think we have accomplished what we set out to do.

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And I think I think we have accomplished what we set out to do, and I think each one of us had some idea that maybe this would propel us into our own unique pathways, Right, Um, and you know, I think we all hoped that.

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You know that we would all find those things, and I think we have.

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I think, so I don't have any, I don't know.

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I don't have any regrets or you know like I don't know, we succeeded at everything we set out to do.

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I'm really proud of us.

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But you're right, I remember we did talk about in the beginning that this was a stepping stone for everybody right Into whatever direction.

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They, they, they were meant to go right and I think that that's really held true, right, yeah, yeah for sure I know, for me, when Marlena came across with this totally crazy idea and it felt and it felt like so out of the blue, like where the hell did this come from?

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Like you know, okay, but she's been my bestest friend since junior high, so if she's going to do it, I'm going to do it with her.

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You know, of course, I mean that's, that's not a question.

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But I know the timing for me was a time in my life where I felt very um and I'm sure all of us in our own way but very disconnected, very um upset with the world and life.

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And we all know it came after, uh, I had lost, I had lost my mother-in-law, and it was very tough and very hard for me to accept the foreverness of it.

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And this really came in at a time when I needed to find more, because I was feeling like I was such in a hole and not sure how I was going to get out of it.

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And, of course, marlena comes with this idea.

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I'm like, oh OK, well, this sounds fun and at least I'll be talking to you every Sunday for however long while we do this.

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But it really pulled me out of a bad place because I just felt so empty at that time.

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So it really did help me and, of course, I've always been on a path of trying to like I want to meditate, I want to feel more connected, I want to feel you know more that there's more in this life other than just this day to day stuff that we have to do.

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And I know that there's more and there's a connection.

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And I've struggled with you know my spirituality and God in general at times, you know.

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So this really helped me get through.

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Sorry, a lot of dark places.

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I think we've all been there, jay, you know we're.

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And again, I mean this came when each one of us needed it in a certain way, but we all needed it.

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Yeah, thank you for your crazy ideas, marlena, and thank you, mom, for all the time and effort you've put into this, because we all know this're not.

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You know, this isn't something we're being paid for.

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Mom's not being paid for this.

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This is on her own time and her own.

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You know when she can do this and it's a lot of work.

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So you know, thank you.

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And, of course, christy, thank you for all your contributions and helping me out with interviews sometimes, and you know doing the things.

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So it's been a, it's been a journey and I just thank you so much for it.

00:20:24.969 --> 00:20:33.039
Yeah, yeah, when Marlena came to me and told me about this and something fun to do in your spare time?

00:20:33.260 --> 00:20:34.222
Yeah, can you.

00:20:34.222 --> 00:20:35.445
Can you produce and edit it?

00:20:35.445 --> 00:20:38.098
And I'm like I know nothing about a podcast.

00:20:38.118 --> 00:20:39.301
We're on the same page.

00:20:42.694 --> 00:20:44.737
I was like, well, we're on the same page, exactly.

00:20:44.737 --> 00:20:55.607
I was like, well, it's technical, so maybe, but honestly, at that time I had retired and I didn't know what I was supposed to do, right?

00:20:55.607 --> 00:20:58.570
So I was really in a funk.

00:20:58.570 --> 00:21:08.541
So for her to ask me that and to give me some kind of something, to do on a daily basis.

00:21:08.561 --> 00:21:11.270
Plus, I had just had my knee replaced right so just a few months before, and the rehab wasn't going well.

00:21:11.270 --> 00:21:13.719
So I truly was in a funk.

00:21:13.719 --> 00:21:20.657
I was like, okay, I'll try it, but but yeah, it just lifted me up to to the point where I could.

00:21:20.657 --> 00:21:41.201
I could feel good about myself again, right and and and, of course, the episodes, right, the, the content, you know, the, the meaning behind this podcast was just was exactly what I needed, you know, and it opened my eyes and opened my mind to a lot of things, that that I knew, but also a lot of stuff that I just had no idea.

00:21:41.201 --> 00:21:45.650
You know that I was going to be involved in somehow in my life.

00:21:45.650 --> 00:21:54.883
So it's been, it's been a real honor to do this with you, ladies, so I am going to miss you all.

00:21:55.965 --> 00:21:57.838
Yeah, you're going to make me cry again.

00:21:58.421 --> 00:21:59.023
Well, don't worry, mom.

00:21:59.023 --> 00:22:00.740
You'll still see me tomorrow.

00:22:03.016 --> 00:22:04.402
And Marlena, I'll see you after this.

00:22:04.402 --> 00:22:09.042
Can't get rid of her.

00:22:09.326 --> 00:22:09.789
Yeah.

00:22:10.736 --> 00:22:16.795
So to the listeners, like this isn't like we're breaking up or anything, we are still the best of friends, oh yeah.

00:22:16.795 --> 00:22:23.106
No, not at all, we're just going to support each other off the air, yeah.

00:22:23.915 --> 00:22:25.983
I'll take the show Outside the show yeah, exactly.

00:22:26.154 --> 00:22:27.519
And it you know, but it is.

00:22:27.519 --> 00:22:29.325
We're all in different parts.

00:22:29.325 --> 00:22:38.169
I mean, obviously you three live closer than I do, so we definitely will have to make time to catch up together every once in a while.

00:22:38.634 --> 00:22:42.685
But if we could, if we could make time for the podcast, we can make time for that.

00:22:43.227 --> 00:22:49.525
Yeah, and I still believe we all need to go to Sedona together because I'm the one that needs to go.

00:22:49.805 --> 00:22:51.428
That is, it is Absolutely.

00:22:51.428 --> 00:22:55.079
We still need to do a Sedona trip.

00:22:55.823 --> 00:22:57.340
Okay, so you guys want to hear a story?

00:22:57.340 --> 00:22:59.442
Yes, so I'm going to just go off topic real quick.

00:22:59.442 --> 00:23:02.720
Mom, you heard the story because I called you after it happened.

00:23:02.720 --> 00:23:30.478
So, before I moved back to my house, I was driving down the street and I was going to work and I was talking to my mom and I talk to my mom every morning as I'm driving to work and I'm driving and I'm still on my street and I'm about to turn and I see this woman in a t-shirt and gray leggings and dark hair, hair in a ponytail, and she has two corgis.

00:23:30.478 --> 00:23:46.309
One of the corgis has a like teal green collar and is wearing a t-shirt, a doggy t-shirt, and then the other corgi has a pink collar, and so I was like oh, corgis, that's what went through my mind.

00:23:47.236 --> 00:23:52.788
And so I drive to work and my mom and I hang up before I actually get to the parking garage.

00:23:52.788 --> 00:24:08.923
And then I get to the parking garage and all of a sudden I see this woman and going back to the original woman, she had already crossed the street, so she's walking away from me, so all I see is her back and the two corgis.

00:24:08.923 --> 00:24:30.741
So, as I'm coming up to the parking garage I'm grabbing my access card and I look up and there's this woman with dark hair and a ponytail, a t-shirt, gray leggings, two corgis, one with a teal, green collar, wearing a t-shirt and another one with a pink collar.

00:24:30.741 --> 00:24:32.987
And I was like oh, corgis.

00:24:32.987 --> 00:24:36.078
And I was like no, no, hold on, hold on.

00:24:36.098 --> 00:24:37.442
And I was like deja vu.

00:24:37.442 --> 00:24:41.838
And I was like, yes, this just happened, but like an hour ago in Livermore.

00:24:41.838 --> 00:24:45.606
I'm now in San Jose, I'm seeing the same fucking thing.

00:24:45.606 --> 00:24:50.709
And so I just called my mom and I was like mom, you're never going to believe this.

00:24:50.709 --> 00:24:56.727
I was like I think I jumped timelines, or like timelines are collapsing, or it's a glitch in the matrix, or you know.

00:24:56.727 --> 00:25:07.761
So these are things that I like really pay attention to now that maybe I, you know, in the very beginning, you know it was like, oh well, you know that was kind of cool.

00:25:07.761 --> 00:25:09.521
Now I'm like okay, what does that mean?

00:25:09.521 --> 00:25:14.954
You know, I'm wanting to dive into it a little bit more and figure it out, which I still haven't figured it out.

00:25:14.994 --> 00:25:16.803
I was going to say did you dive into it more?

00:25:17.035 --> 00:25:27.951
Cause that's cool, it was I mean, but I was just like okay you know it, it it was the same woman, it was the same dogs, like even the markings on one of the dogs was exactly the same.

00:25:27.951 --> 00:25:29.962
You know, the other one was wearing a t-shirt.

00:25:29.962 --> 00:25:33.136
So I'm like, you know, and it was the same color t-shirt, like it was just.

00:25:33.136 --> 00:25:34.403
Everything was the same.

00:25:34.403 --> 00:25:40.076
It was the same person doing the same thing, but somewhere else, right, you know?

00:25:41.018 --> 00:25:48.509
there was no way like, you know, if I'm driving around town or whatever and I see someone walking their dog and go to the grocery store, jump back in the car.

00:25:48.509 --> 00:25:53.917
I see them again, but they're, you know, in another part of the town because they've been walking.

00:25:53.917 --> 00:25:58.185
Can't walk from Livermore to San Jose in an hour.

00:25:58.185 --> 00:25:59.969
It took me an hour to drive there.

00:25:59.969 --> 00:26:02.739
I'm like, where did you come from?

00:26:02.739 --> 00:26:04.723
So, yeah, yeah.

00:26:04.723 --> 00:26:19.943
So I'm like, okay, let me change the topic, because you know I got to tell you guys one more of my crazy stories before we, before we end all this so well yeah, you better still text us with your crazy stories, cause that is for sure, for sure, for sure, yeah, for sure, for sure yeah.

00:26:20.003 --> 00:26:25.698
Yeah, that was awesome, I loved it.

00:26:25.698 --> 00:26:27.746
I was like, oh my God, you jumped timelines.

00:26:31.375 --> 00:26:33.737
I was like mom, mom, I know that you're doing something, but stop, I got to talk to you.

00:26:33.737 --> 00:26:35.558
I have to tell you what happened to me.

00:26:36.799 --> 00:26:37.921
That is so cool.

00:26:38.300 --> 00:26:53.865
You definitely jumped timelines Like, like you said, glitch in the matrix, something like, yeah, whatever it was you know timeline collapse I'm not sure, but you know, like some of the Mandela effects and stuff like that that have been happening, like do you guys remember Richard Simmons dying before?

00:26:54.394 --> 00:27:01.407
like this past few weekends- Like there was stories that he had died and he wasn't dead.

00:27:01.769 --> 00:27:03.894
I thought he was, didn't he just die?

00:27:03.894 --> 00:27:05.721
See, that happens to me a lot.

00:27:05.741 --> 00:27:06.423
He just died.

00:27:06.423 --> 00:27:07.915
I already thought that he did, but.

00:27:07.976 --> 00:27:08.839
I already thought he was dead.

00:27:08.839 --> 00:27:11.522
I'm telling you, like Bob Barker died 15 times.

00:27:11.522 --> 00:27:12.125
I'm telling you.

00:27:14.895 --> 00:27:17.243
I'm like wait, I'm so confused, he just died.

00:27:18.815 --> 00:27:24.339
See, but I'm in a timeline where he had died already, and so I'm like again the Mandela effect.

00:27:24.339 --> 00:27:24.980
Um.

00:27:25.340 --> 00:27:32.147
so, yes, I think I remember stories coming out that people thought he was dead because he so went into like he left.

00:27:32.147 --> 00:27:36.231
He just left the industry left the spotlight and people thought he was dead.

00:27:42.875 --> 00:27:46.992
No, but I I swear there was like news stories before, Like I swear I have read that, Like I re I didn't realize he died just recently.

00:27:48.496 --> 00:27:50.221
I want to be in your guys's timeline.

00:27:50.241 --> 00:27:51.244
This looks interesting.

00:27:53.256 --> 00:27:53.980
Multiple times.

00:27:55.476 --> 00:27:57.619
Speaking of timelines and like weird shit.

00:27:57.619 --> 00:28:11.736
So, since moving back home, um, I, there's a lot of times where I'm walking and like through, through my house and I'm like I, I don't know which house I'm in, and you know, I know that happens when you move and stuff like that.

00:28:11.736 --> 00:28:14.442
But and maybe it's because I, you know.

00:28:14.442 --> 00:28:18.637
And then here's my logical brain, let me, let me find the real reason behind this.

00:28:18.979 --> 00:28:26.921
You know not but, you know, I, because I lived here before and then, you know, have been gone for a few years and now coming back.

00:28:26.921 --> 00:28:43.606
There's a lot of things that a lot of times where I'm not sure where I'm walking, like if I'm in the hallway of my mom's house or the hallway of this house, and you know, so I'm, I'm, I'm feeling very weird lately where I'm just like, oh my God, I don't know what's going on.

00:28:43.606 --> 00:28:52.147
But also, since moving back, I'm finding a lot of things from the past are coming back into my life.

00:28:52.147 --> 00:29:21.482
So and there's one situation that I don't want to really talk about on the air because, well, I don't know what's going to happen so but with Vince, vince has gotten back into karate and he's been going back to the original karate school that Alexis had went to and is also very heavily back in contact with his original original instructor and with Alexis.

00:29:21.604 --> 00:29:28.152
Alexis was like I feel like I'm a child back in my childhood room kind of situation.

00:29:28.152 --> 00:29:51.788
And then there's been things in my life where I feel like things are just coming back Because the situations that we were going through in the past again I have tools to be able to deal with some of those things, or understanding that maybe that's not as important.

00:29:51.788 --> 00:29:55.705
I'm not putting as much stock in it as I did in the past.

00:29:55.705 --> 00:29:59.022
So yeah, but I'm going through it.

00:29:59.022 --> 00:30:00.622
I feel very weird.

00:30:00.622 --> 00:30:02.622
I feel like I'm constant.

00:30:02.622 --> 00:30:06.232
My life is vertigo, almost where.

00:30:06.252 --> 00:30:07.999
I'm just like I don't know what's going on.

00:30:08.038 --> 00:30:11.195
I don't know what's up and what's down and where I'm at and what's going on.

00:30:11.195 --> 00:30:13.863
So, yeah, that's uh that's interesting.

00:30:13.863 --> 00:30:15.847
Yeah, so I'll keep you guys posted, I can.

00:30:16.095 --> 00:30:24.930
I can see how yeah, I can see how that might happen too, and a place holds so many memories and so many you know like you, just sometimes you underestimate.

00:30:25.535 --> 00:30:34.920
Well, I mean, I feel like I went into a portal almost like you know and went back in time, but then not.

00:30:34.920 --> 00:30:38.624
So it's just yeah, it's really weird, it's weird.

00:30:39.185 --> 00:30:39.527
It's weird.

00:30:40.458 --> 00:30:58.402
Well, good for Vince, though I'm glad he's like getting back into all that and or getting back with his original, original instructor.

00:30:58.402 --> 00:31:08.946
That's awesome, that's good for him, that's his thing and for him, and without bringing Alexis along for the ride and putting pressure on them to be able to do things Again.

00:31:08.946 --> 00:31:21.152
We're doing things differently this time around, and so it almost feels like a second chance to be able to, maybe some of the wrongs, make those right.

00:31:21.172 --> 00:31:24.373
I don't know, We'll see, we'll see what the future holds.

00:31:24.373 --> 00:31:26.516
I love it.

00:31:26.516 --> 00:31:31.324
Yeah, lots to think about, okay, okay, I guess Is that it.

00:31:31.805 --> 00:31:33.969
I'm like okay, oh man.

00:31:33.969 --> 00:31:48.791
Well, I'm just going to say one last thing, um that this podcast allowed me to reintroduce myself, and I'm not even going to be able to say it.

00:31:51.646 --> 00:31:52.369
I get what you're saying.

00:31:52.369 --> 00:31:55.132
Yeah, because this podcast helped me find myself.

00:31:55.132 --> 00:32:03.372
Mm-hmm, you know, I think that I didn't know who I was, and I still don't.

00:32:03.372 --> 00:32:15.349
But you know, I've also found the beauty in that, you know, figuring out who I am, and then all of a sudden, like things change in your life and so you know it's a constant thing.

00:32:15.349 --> 00:32:21.748
But I didn't know who I was, and now I have a better idea of who I am now.

00:32:21.748 --> 00:32:22.128
So.

00:32:22.128 --> 00:32:27.638
So thank you, ladies, and thank you so much for coming on this journey with me.

00:32:28.326 --> 00:32:41.108
And uh, feelings, ew with me and uh feelings, ew, we're back to day one vulnerability.

00:32:41.128 --> 00:32:51.292
I know gross, I'm just kidding, but it's been amazing watching the three of you grow right from the very first episode, well, even prior to when we were doing the test episode.

00:32:51.313 --> 00:32:54.377
Yes, oh, boy, oh boy.

00:32:56.806 --> 00:33:01.037
And how much you guys have grown, you know, spiritually and in every way.

00:33:01.037 --> 00:33:03.173
And it's just been, it's been amazing to watch.

00:33:03.173 --> 00:33:04.909
Should we put out some?

00:33:04.969 --> 00:33:05.892
of those videos.

00:33:07.217 --> 00:33:07.698
Oh God.

00:33:07.865 --> 00:33:14.159
I think they're archived, actually they are oh darn Too bad, too bad, oh darn, too bad.

00:33:14.159 --> 00:33:16.012
No, yeah, too bad.

00:33:17.487 --> 00:33:18.109
They're in the vault.

00:33:19.744 --> 00:33:30.530
I mean I do have some videos where Christy and I we were doing a recording I think it was Women in Competition episodes and your computer fell.

00:33:30.530 --> 00:33:31.513
We're like whoa.

00:33:35.746 --> 00:33:36.788
Yeah, I remember that one.

00:33:36.788 --> 00:33:39.073
Oh my gosh.

00:33:39.073 --> 00:33:45.888
Yeah, but you, this was just also unexpected and I am so grateful for it.

00:33:45.888 --> 00:33:51.416
So, um, I'm grateful for the people that listened and that hyped us up.

00:33:51.416 --> 00:34:22.855
We have a lot of hype people out there, um, and you know, whenever you're starting a podcast, like many other people in this world, you just you just don't know and um, but there was such a loyal group of listeners and people who just really believed in what we were doing and were encouraging and loved us, and I don't know if I would have been able to see that before before actually being on this podcast, and I see it now and I see it abundantly.

00:34:22.855 --> 00:34:25.500
So, thank you, I already cried.

00:34:28.985 --> 00:34:33.034
She's like I'm not doing that again.

00:34:33.054 --> 00:34:49.969
You just had like an allotment of one, you're just like the audience hasn't figured out that I'm the first crier by now you haven't been listening, so I'm usually the one to start crying first.

00:34:50.085 --> 00:34:54.458
You know what this podcast has also taught me to quit laughing at you when you're, I'm usually the one that starts crying first.

00:34:54.478 --> 00:34:59.048
Yeah, but you know what this podcast has also taught?

00:34:59.088 --> 00:35:01.599
me to quit laughing at you when you're the first one to cry.

00:35:01.641 --> 00:35:16.472
Well, good, I'm glad that's awesome and I say that and everybody's like yeah, marlene is a bitch, but no, jamie and I growing up it was whenever we'd be hanging out all of a sudden, you know, she'd just start crying.

00:35:16.472 --> 00:35:22.193
We'd get all mushy and everything, but she'd be the first one to cry and then we'd and then I'd laugh.

00:35:22.465 --> 00:35:23.429
I blame my mother.

00:35:23.429 --> 00:35:26.231
She's the same way.

00:35:26.867 --> 00:35:28.251
And I do the same thing.

00:35:29.327 --> 00:35:32.612
I love it too and I love that I have that characteristic of hers.

00:35:32.612 --> 00:35:40.971
But as also growing up and my mom would be like the first one to cry, and I'd look at her to be like mom, of course, you're the first one to cry Like.

00:35:40.971 --> 00:35:46.467
I mean, and now here I am, so I'm eating my words, yeah, and I'm okay with it.

00:35:46.467 --> 00:35:48.572
I'm a crier, I'm okay with it.

00:35:48.572 --> 00:35:50.074
I'm okay with that.

00:35:50.695 --> 00:35:51.195
I love that.

00:35:51.476 --> 00:36:03.494
I love that about you, thanks, but yes, I said it before and I just I feel like I need to add you know that I love you, ladies, and so much, and just thank you for the opportunity.

00:36:03.494 --> 00:36:11.516
It's been an honor and I hope maybe something comes out later, even if it's a revisit, but who knows, maybe not.

00:36:11.536 --> 00:36:15.030
Yeah, Don't get rid of your equipment.

00:36:15.231 --> 00:36:16.173
Yeah, I'm not.

00:36:16.173 --> 00:36:16.695
I'm not.

00:36:16.695 --> 00:36:18.851
I'm just going to stop panicking.

00:36:18.851 --> 00:36:19.936
Are my headphones charged?

00:36:19.936 --> 00:36:24.072
Shit I got to get on, but I don't have to panic about that.

00:36:24.072 --> 00:36:25.771
Are the right cables plugged in the right way?

00:36:26.224 --> 00:36:27.391
Because otherwise, it won't work.

00:36:29.065 --> 00:36:34.277
Yeah, we won't even talk about the IT mess before we finally nailed it down.

00:36:34.277 --> 00:36:38.652
No, exactly, and nothing on mom's behalf.

00:36:38.652 --> 00:36:40.577
Just all of us in four different locations.

00:36:44.007 --> 00:36:49.547
We were just so unsure about everything we're like does this sound okay, I don't know how about this.

00:36:49.907 --> 00:36:50.547
Can you lower?

00:36:50.547 --> 00:36:51.309
Can you go up?

00:36:51.309 --> 00:36:52.612
I can't hear you, can you?

00:36:52.612 --> 00:36:53.532
Yeah?

00:36:53.532 --> 00:36:57.360
Yeah, we finally mastered it only after a couple of years.

00:36:58.726 --> 00:37:09.010
Yeah, well, I want to thank all of our listeners for just everything you know for, for being along for the ride, um, for helping us.

00:37:09.010 --> 00:37:15.000
I don't think that you guys understand how big of a part of our lives you have been.

00:37:15.000 --> 00:37:26.697
So thank you so much for everything you've done for us, for the positive energy, for you know, for it all, for listening For the votes.

00:37:28.307 --> 00:37:29.114
Yeah, I'm just going to say it.

00:37:29.425 --> 00:37:31.574
I was just going to say that they voted for us.

00:37:32.427 --> 00:37:36.190
We won awards because of them and our wonderful guests.

00:37:36.231 --> 00:37:36.994
How cool was that.

00:37:36.994 --> 00:37:38.710
Yeah that was amazing.

00:37:39.045 --> 00:37:41.413
Our guests who came on and we got to meet.

00:37:41.413 --> 00:37:42.496
They were amazing.

00:37:42.496 --> 00:37:46.815
I mean, we do all of this, including our guests, for free.

00:37:46.815 --> 00:37:57.393
And they took their time out, too, to be on our show and we're just so grateful for them and some in other countries that was very interesting to play on.

00:37:57.393 --> 00:37:59.565
I'm like Marlena, did you get the right time?

00:37:59.565 --> 00:38:02.110
She goes oh my God, okay, they're in, they're in Australia.

00:38:02.110 --> 00:38:06.253
So that means this Okay, yeah, it was like a lot of math.

00:38:08.407 --> 00:38:09.331
There was a lot of math.

00:38:11.367 --> 00:38:12.612
I don't know how the math was not mapping.

00:38:16.045 --> 00:38:17.427
Yeah, I fucked up the times a number of times.

00:38:17.427 --> 00:38:21.432
I'm like okay, how do I calculate Australia to California?

00:38:21.432 --> 00:38:22.134
I don't know.

00:38:23.275 --> 00:38:25.739
Thank God, at least we were all in the same time zone.

00:38:27.989 --> 00:38:29.172
Yeah, so it wasn't like.

00:38:29.271 --> 00:38:38.077
East Coast, australia West Coast, that would have been a hot mess, yeah, so thank you to all of our guests for taking the time to be with us.

00:38:38.885 --> 00:38:48.148
Thank you for educating us and letting us be curious and ask maybe sometimes dumb questions or silly questions.

00:38:48.751 --> 00:38:50.914
We appreciate you and Morgan.

00:38:50.914 --> 00:38:53.498
We're going to see you next time we go to Sedona.

00:38:55.086 --> 00:38:55.487
Yes.

00:38:56.009 --> 00:39:08.114
I love her and, like I was saying, I've been meeting and working with people, so Jamie Della I've actually been working with, so I absolutely adore her.

00:39:08.114 --> 00:39:11.358
I was excited for Kate Van Horn to come on the show.

00:39:20.664 --> 00:39:21.668
She's one of my mentors and she's amazing.

00:39:21.668 --> 00:39:24.420
Go get her book, go get Jamie's books, go get everybody's books, go get all the books.

00:39:24.420 --> 00:39:43.023
Yeah, and I was going to say, show the smaller podcasts some love, because there's a lot of big podcasts out there that we love, right, but to you know, to our listeners, maybe go find another small podcast that you resonate with and just show them some love and support them until maybe we are back for a couple episodes.

00:39:43.023 --> 00:39:45.469
We don't know, we don't know what the future holds.

00:39:45.690 --> 00:39:54.387
So, yeah, I know I may learn new things and be like okay, you guys ready to come back, what'd you guys learn?

00:39:54.387 --> 00:39:58.137
Okay, let's jump on, we'll do it for another couple of years again.

00:39:58.137 --> 00:40:04.655
Mom will be like you better learn how to edit this shit yourself.

00:40:06.266 --> 00:40:07.190
That's what you need to learn.

00:40:09.505 --> 00:40:10.550
I learned how to edit.

00:40:10.550 --> 00:40:11.673
You guys want to record again.

00:40:11.673 --> 00:40:16.012
Learn how to produce now.

00:40:18.646 --> 00:40:21.954
I'll need to retire from my job first before we can do that.

00:40:22.275 --> 00:40:22.916
There we go, yes.

00:40:23.346 --> 00:40:30.108
We've had a hard enough time trying to schedule with our work schedules, but sometimes you got to.

00:40:30.128 --> 00:40:31.896
you know like we don't get paid for this, so we got to be able to pay our bills schedules.

00:40:31.896 --> 00:40:32.621
So you know, but sometimes you gotta.

00:40:32.621 --> 00:40:35.228
You know like we don't get paid for this, so we gotta be able to pay our bills too.

00:40:35.228 --> 00:40:44.954
So, but also I see some positive things for all of us in our professional lives as well as our spiritual lives.

00:40:44.954 --> 00:40:47.349
And yeah, did you pull cards today?

00:40:47.349 --> 00:40:49.773
I did not, but I got a new tarot deck.

00:40:51.065 --> 00:40:51.686
Did you pull cards today?

00:40:51.686 --> 00:40:53.052
I did not, but I got a new tarot deck.

00:40:53.253 --> 00:40:56.402
I'm like I got a new tarot deck.

00:40:56.402 --> 00:41:07.159
It's everyday witch, um, and it's the Rider Waite deck, but um, with really cool witch art on it.

00:41:07.159 --> 00:41:11.313
So, um, so, yeah, so like, here's the four of wands.

00:41:11.313 --> 00:41:12.135
It's pretty.

00:41:13.346 --> 00:41:14.150
Ooh, okay, very pretty.

00:41:14.170 --> 00:41:17.452
Ooh, I like them as I just start pulling cards.

00:41:17.452 --> 00:41:19.550
Here's the strength card.

00:41:21.266 --> 00:41:22.190
Oh nice.

00:41:23.266 --> 00:41:26.010
Let's see here Ooh, the seven of pentacles.

00:41:26.010 --> 00:41:30.454
Oh, those are pretty, yeah, so I'm really excited about this deck?

00:41:30.454 --> 00:41:34.195
Oh, here's the full.

00:41:37.887 --> 00:41:39.092
Oh, I love that, that's cool.

00:41:40.865 --> 00:41:42.190
Do you see the hawk in there, mom?

00:41:42.190 --> 00:41:42.954
That's awesome.

00:41:44.507 --> 00:41:48.507
No, because I don't have my glasses, hang on.

00:41:48.507 --> 00:41:49.588
Keep on holding it up there on.

00:41:49.588 --> 00:41:52.434
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:41:53.016 --> 00:41:56.007
when I saw that, because I, I mean, these just came in yesterday.

00:41:56.007 --> 00:42:09.032
So when I when I saw that, I just started laughing and I was like, oh, that's me, and and the hawk um oh, I love it.

00:42:09.032 --> 00:42:11.036
So I'm like oh, I got a new deck though.

00:42:12.297 --> 00:42:13.400
I got dowsing rods.

00:42:13.784 --> 00:42:14.891
I'm like, what am I going to do?

00:42:14.891 --> 00:42:16.371
I have a pendulum here.

00:42:16.371 --> 00:42:23.445
You know, when I bought this deck, vince was like don't you have a ton of decks?

00:42:23.445 --> 00:42:26.494
I said, yeah, but a lot of them are in boxes and I can't find them.

00:42:26.494 --> 00:42:28.572
So, and I said, and this is a new one?

00:42:28.572 --> 00:42:30.452
I was like, look, it's witches.

00:42:34.447 --> 00:42:36.269
I couldn't find them, so I just got a new one.

00:42:37.164 --> 00:42:41.577
Well, no, I mean, I have a tarot deck in my work bag.

00:42:41.577 --> 00:42:43.231
I have a tarot deck in my purse.

00:42:43.231 --> 00:42:45.023
I have a tarot deck in my bedroom.

00:42:45.023 --> 00:42:49.757
I have another tarot deck sitting here at my desk.

00:42:49.757 --> 00:42:55.315
I mean, it's not like I don't have tarot decks around, but you don't have that one.

00:42:55.516 --> 00:42:56.418
And now you do.

00:42:56.418 --> 00:42:57.570
I didn't have that one, yes.

00:42:57.610 --> 00:43:04.253
And again, the majority of my tarot decks are in a box in the garage right now, so I need to go locate them.

00:43:04.253 --> 00:43:08.074
And I was like I need to go to the crystal store because I want to get a crystal for my niece.

00:43:08.074 --> 00:43:17.833
And I want to get her some smoky quartz which I know I have a ton of in a box in my garage.

00:43:17.833 --> 00:43:23.969
So you know, first I'm I'm going to ask the pendulum where that is, um, and you know.

00:43:24.369 --> 00:43:34.722
but but here's the thing I may just need to go to the crystal shop just because I was, I was going to say maybe, maybe you can't find them because you need to go to the crystal shop just because I was, I was going to say maybe, maybe you can't find them because you need to go to the crystal shop.

00:43:34.722 --> 00:43:36.492
I mean, that's girl logic, I feel like.

00:43:40.454 --> 00:43:46.112
Makes sense to me Go to the crystal shop yeah.

00:43:46.152 --> 00:43:47.856
So, yeah exactly so.

00:43:47.856 --> 00:43:56.132
But if you don't want to go to the crystal shop, I have I do have some smoky quartz, so you can come over here.

00:43:56.132 --> 00:43:56.873
Come over here.

00:43:58.175 --> 00:44:03.351
Oh, she's laying cards out, shh.

00:44:03.393 --> 00:44:10.099
Quiet, you Quiet, okay.

00:44:10.099 --> 00:44:14.309
So well, hold on, you know.

00:44:14.309 --> 00:44:32.980
So, basically, the way I'm seeing this is we've all kind of found what we need collectively and now it's time for us to find what we need individually.

00:44:32.980 --> 00:44:59.275
And that's definitely coming that contentment with the Nine of Cups and I flipped over the card or the deck and we've given so much of ourselves to everyone else over the last couple of years you know our, our knowledge and whatnot that it's time for us to start, um, looking more within and focusing on on us.

00:44:59.275 --> 00:45:03.869
So that's, uh, that's what the cards are telling me right now.

00:45:04.230 --> 00:45:08.456
And uh, that's beautiful, so so which?

00:45:08.456 --> 00:45:09.898
Cards are they?

00:45:09.960 --> 00:45:10.981
Which ones were they?

00:45:10.981 --> 00:45:13.405
Which ones, which ones so?

00:45:14.067 --> 00:45:17.152
we have the nine of pentacles here.

00:45:17.152 --> 00:45:19.436
Nice, Okay, you got your glasses on, mom.

00:45:19.436 --> 00:45:23.170
I'm like can you see I'm there now I'm trying to get it to focus.

00:45:23.170 --> 00:45:23.572
There we go.

00:45:23.572 --> 00:45:31.556
So the nine of pentacles, we have the queen of pentacles and then we have the nine of cups.

00:45:31.876 --> 00:45:33.360
Wow, wow, nines.

00:45:33.420 --> 00:45:46.590
Right, that's the end of a cycle, the end of is yep, yeah, and then we have the six of wands, which in that is a celebration, you know, and so celebrating, but you know, celebrating this end.

00:45:47.472 --> 00:45:49.568
Wow, I think that's beautiful.

00:45:50.050 --> 00:45:52.666
You can't make that up, you just can't make that up.

00:45:52.666 --> 00:45:56.610
No, I think that's a beautiful way to wrap this up.

00:45:56.610 --> 00:45:58.771
I really do yeah absolutely.

00:45:58.771 --> 00:46:06.938
I think so too, yeah, and I know we all have our own imposter syndrome, but, lane, you've really come into your own with this stuff, so yeah keep believing in yourself.

00:46:07.820 --> 00:46:08.440
You got this.

00:46:08.659 --> 00:46:10.001
Yes, yeah, because we believe in you.

00:46:10.021 --> 00:46:10.461
We believe, yes, we do.

00:46:10.481 --> 00:46:12.423
Thank you Thank you this yes, yeah, cause we believe in you.

00:46:12.423 --> 00:46:12.623
Yes, we do.

00:46:12.623 --> 00:46:13.605
Thank you, thank you.

00:46:15.106 --> 00:46:19.094
So, um well, ladies, I don't know how I I mean, I don't know how I take this out.

00:46:19.094 --> 00:46:20.858
Do we just say that's a wrap.

00:46:20.858 --> 00:46:23.166
Goodbye for now.

00:46:23.909 --> 00:46:33.945
Well, thank you so much for joining us over the last two years and um, and being on this journey with us.

00:46:33.945 --> 00:46:34.367
We, we have loved it.

00:46:34.367 --> 00:46:39.195
There were yeah, you know, knowing that that we were helping maybe just one person.

00:46:39.195 --> 00:46:42.146
Um, you know that means a lot.

00:46:42.146 --> 00:46:49.226
You know to know that we're told meaning and um yeah you know, just thank you.

00:46:49.847 --> 00:46:59.726
And I think I could say you know for a lot of us, because you know a lot of us in this group right here that you know some of us were in really dark places.

00:46:59.726 --> 00:47:06.887
So you know you're listening to us and watching us grow and everything you know really kind of saved our lives.

00:47:06.887 --> 00:47:09.010
So thank you, that's a true statement.

00:47:09.590 --> 00:47:11.693
We love you all and I love you ladies so much.

00:47:11.693 --> 00:47:15.137
Yeah, thank you, I love you too, yay.

00:47:15.157 --> 00:47:16.719
Jamie, I'll see you in August.

00:47:19.467 --> 00:47:19.827
In person.

00:47:19.827 --> 00:47:21.771
I'll be in Vegas in person.

00:47:21.771 --> 00:47:23.835
Vince is going for a karate tournament.

00:47:23.835 --> 00:47:24.416
He's.

00:47:24.416 --> 00:47:28.686
I said you're going to Vegas for a karate tournament, I'm going to Vegas.

00:47:28.686 --> 00:47:30.489
To Vegas, I'm going to see my best friend and my cousin.

00:47:30.550 --> 00:47:41.108
She called and told me I know it's your anniversary weekend, but and I said, but I'm going to see you If that's what you're asking Chad Marlene's going to be on our anniversary weekend.

00:47:41.108 --> 00:47:43.376
We got to be down there, okay, okay.

00:47:44.019 --> 00:47:47.088
But it's not your actual anniversary and I'm leaving on.

00:47:47.088 --> 00:47:55.567
Sunday, so you know I'm going to be there on Thursday, so it's like you know, as long as I have one day with you.

00:47:57.570 --> 00:47:57.891
All right.

00:47:57.972 --> 00:48:01.579
Well, thank you for joining us on this journey.

00:48:05.806 --> 00:48:20.170
Yeah, we'll still have our podcast up all of our past episodes so you know, if you ever want to go back and there's something that you need to listen to, I know for me there's a lot, a lot of times I go back to um our heroes journey episodes.

00:48:20.771 --> 00:48:25.619
Um, I've been listening to our women in competition.

00:48:25.619 --> 00:48:34.447
Um, there's been a lot of that that I've been witnessing, uh, lately, and so, but you know, trying to do things different and stuff.

00:48:34.447 --> 00:48:42.054
So but yeah, go back and listen to some of those episodes and then you know, with some of our guests, if they resonate with you, to search on them.

00:48:42.054 --> 00:48:45.594
Go check out some of the other podcasts, because you may find some of the killer podcasts out there.

00:48:45.594 --> 00:48:49.849
So you know, we, we love you, all my ladies, I love you.

00:48:51.213 --> 00:48:52.675
All right, that's it All right.

00:48:52.675 --> 00:48:53.679
So long for now.

00:48:54.244 --> 00:48:54.804
That's a wrap you.