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Carrying around that one special book without ever cracking it open? We've all been there, and in our latest episode, Jamie, Marlena, and Christy get real about the books they hoard with the best of intentions. As they journey beyond their literary confessions, Christy shares how the universe threw her a curveball with a surprise career opportunity, upending her usual slow and steady approach with a demand for rapid decision-making. Our conversation waltzes through the joys of anticipated fiction reads and the serendipity of life's offerings, revealing the unexpected twists in our personal and professional narratives.
Sometimes, growth requires a leap into the unknown. This episode explores the gutsy mindset shift needed to trade the security of a corporate job for the thrill of a new venture, and how embracing discomfort can be the catalyst for profound personal development. Marlena steers us through the complexities of compassionate leadership, while we confront the internal tug-of-war between spirituality and skepticism. It's a candid look at the hurdles we face when aligning our actions with our aspirations, and the resilience we find along the way.
Our exploration doesn't stop at career and personal growth; we delve into the mystical influences in our lives, from moon energy work to the potential spiritual roots of physical ailments. Jamie opens up about her transformative experiences with lunar cycles, inviting you to consider how these natural rhythms could shape your own life. We wrap this episode with gratitude, encouraging you to explore the insights from our past discussions available on our website. Tune in for a tapestry of anecdotes, revelations, and an invitation to embrace the books and experiences that shape our journeys.
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Chapters
00:26 - Manifesting a New Career Opportunity
07:16 - Navigating Manifestations and Growth
17:29 - Exploring Spirituality and Moon Energy
23:12 - Exploring Release and Self-Acceptance
36:14 - Podcast Wrap-Up and Thanks
Transcript
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Hi, welcome to A Witch, a Mystic and A Feminist.
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It is Jamie Marlena and me.
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Just the three of us today, and we are thrilled because we are going to take this episode wherever it goes.
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So buckle up.
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We have no plans, but you know what?
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Usually that's where the best content comes from.
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So buckle up.
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We have no plans, but you know what?
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Usually that's where the best content comes from.
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So I'm excited, but apparently we're full of really really good advice, so we are.
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You might get a piece of that today, just saying yes, maybe.
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Yeah, and you know, prior to starting this recording we were talking about books and reading because you know, for the podcast we actually have to read quite a bit lately for the guests that we've had on.
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We've had a number of authors on the show?
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Yeah, yeah, and so you know, and while I do love reading their books and just like learning, we were discussing how we can't wait until we just have like a fiction, just just like a beach read, a vacation read, where we can just like just lose ourselves in it.
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Um, so I'm very excited for that time.
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I don't know when that time will come for me, but Marlena is almost there.
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And I have a book that has nothing to do with the podcast.
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It has nothing to do.
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It has nothing to do with spirituality.
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How thick is that?
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That's a big book.
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Maybe I don't want that book.
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Yes, I don't know.
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Yeah.
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That's a lot of pages, no, if I don't Well, and If I can actually like, yeah, no, it's not that many Like get through this without you know.
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reading it the way I like to read, I could probably get through the 400 pages in a few days.
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So, um, also, I can't sleep on a plane, so I may just be reading the entire time, except the flight home.
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That's when I pass out.
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That is when I do.
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The most of my reading is on the plane, Cause everyone else can sleep, which is annoying and I can't so we were just discussing that.
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I am such an avid book reader in air quotes you can get.
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You can't see that I love when I get into a good book, a good book that I just can't put down.
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But for me to start it and stick with it, it has to get me from the very beginning, and I love the idea of reading, but it doesn't happen for me.
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I will walk around this house carrying a book that I plan on reading everywhere I sit, Because as soon as I sit I'm going to read that book.
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Or every time I'm on a flight, you should look at my books.
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My bookmarks are my boarding passes and some books have like five of them in there, because the books go with me but they never get opened.
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So I have good intentions of reading.
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Yes, and my mom is an avid book reader.
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I mean now, especially as she's retired, she reads two, three books a month.
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I mean she just goes to them.
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So when I go to her house she's like take this one, take this one, oh, this one's really good, you know, and I do, and then they just sit.
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So that's on my list.
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So, jamie, she's a collector of books at the moment I'm a collector of books.
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Yes, so I'm going to write this recommendation down because, again, I'll probably order it on Amazon and I'll carry it around the house and hopefully I'll read it.
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I don't know.
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Well, I'll read it and then I'll ship it to you.
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There you go.
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There we go, or the next time.
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I see you next time.
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I'm in Vegas, I'll bring it with me and just hand it to you.
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Yeah, there we go, and then we'll see how many boarding passes.
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I can collect, because that's what I do.
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I like that.
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What I do, no, but I mean I do love reading the books that we have for our guests, because and thank goodness they're good books because if I have to read a crappy book I'm going to be so pissed off, Like if I have to read a crappy book I'm going to be so pissed off, Like if I have to read a crappy book.
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Yeah, I have to.
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I have to read a crappy book.
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I feel like I'm in school again.
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God, I got to read this thing, yeah.
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Yeah, yeah, we've been lucky.
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So far.
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We haven't had those books, so thank you to the authors.
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Shout out to our guests who wrote books.
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They've been great, they have really enjoyed them.
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Thank you for keeping us entertained.
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So what's been going on, ladies?
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I feel like we've had guests and guests and they've been fantastic, but hasn't been us three and a hot minute, so that's kind of nice, it's not been.
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Yeah, I've missed you guys.
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Good, I know Same.
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We'll start with Christy, oh we're just jumping in what's been going on, what's?
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happening, um, oh gosh, okay.
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So, um, I mentioned on some former episode that I had kind of manifested an opportunity, a job opportunity, or I I not kind of I'm going to take.
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I'm going to reword this.
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I had manifested a job opportunity, um, back in August of last year, and it looked like it was going to fall apart in December.
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To me, it fell apart and so I was operating as, okay, this isn't, this isn't it right, this isn't the opportunity, and suddenly it came all back together in December and was a very quick.
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Quick had to be a quick decision and had to think through it quickly, which I am not a person who likes to operate on quick changes.
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I need my time, I need to plan, I need to, I need to list it out, I need to pro con that shit.
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So I did all that within a couple of days, which is like unheard of for me, and I left my job of 10 years and went out, kind of not on my own, but that's the plan, right.
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So this opportunity is big and scary and I've been in it now for couple months, a few months, and, uh, it is what I manifested it to be.
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I think if I had been more specific in my manifestation so I want to talk about that Like you know, I, man, I was really calling out for financial security, stability, right, security, like just something that was going to secure our futures and the future of my family.
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And you know, I wasn't specific about the job, I wasn't specific about the industry, I wasn't specific about any of that, right.
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So, whereas I could have, I probably could have said, oh, I really want to be an author, like, really best sell, you know, like, and that's what I want.
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My, you know, I could have been very specific, but I wasn't.
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And so it's in my, my career path, it's in my, you know, like it's, it's, it's all aligned with that and it is hard.
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It is hard, I will say it's not easy, and so I don't know if I, I don't know if I expected it to be easy.
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I just I don't know.
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I'm going to go into this a little bit yeah, I think that when people manifest, um, they do have that misconception that it is going to be easy because you know, yeah, this is what I wanted, so I'm gonna get exactly what I wanted, I'm going to be happy, everything's going to be easy.
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What people don't really realize is when you're manifesting really realize is when you're manifesting, we as humans, we have these blocks in ourselves.
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You know, we're either self-sabotaging or we have limiting beliefs, whatever it is, and so the universe is going to give you what you want, but they're also going to give you these tests or whatever to help you work through those blocks, those limiting beliefs, and so I don't think it's always going to be exactly what you want until you've worked through all of that shit.
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You have some childhood trauma or whatever it is programming, whatever it is that you have that's blocking you.
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You have to work through those blocks to be able to get to exactly where you want to be in that manifestation, if that makes sense.
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Yeah, that makes sense.
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It gives you growth, yeah, and you know, it forces growth because you have to work through the problems.
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Yeah, and I will be honest, the first couple of weeks I was like what the fuck did I do?
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I left my like, I left this cushy job, this corporate job, and I had to decide if I was going to be in this new opportunity a hundred percent and give it my all, or not.
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Right, because it was it.
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It wasn't going to work if I wasn't going to give everything to this opportunity.
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And I asked for it Like I, I wanted this right, so I had to change my attitude.
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And so I I, you know for the first couple of weeks I was go in and I'd be like this is something bigger, this is growing, this is going to grow into something bigger.
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This is going to be what you want it to be.
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You have the opportunity to make it.
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It's your opportunity right.
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Like you're not going into work because you have to.
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You have chosen this, like you have chosen this opportunity.
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And the minute that I changed that mindset, everything kind of changed.
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And not that I don't regress, because there's days when I'm like, oh wait, what the fuck?
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And then I'm like, nope, I got to check myself, right, I got to check myself.
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And when I do, everything shifts, everything changes, um, and so it has been.
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It has been hard, it's been hard work, it's going to be hard work, it's going to be growth.
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It's going to be uncomfortable.
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You know, like when you're in a job for a long time, you kind of can do it in your sleep Sometimes.
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You know you don't have to really think about it, that's not where I am anymore.
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And so you know that's really uncomfortable and I'm like that's really kind of just like.
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Oh, man, I want to be back in that comfy blanket.
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I just want to be like that was nice, that was real nice, uh.
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But you know, eventually I'll get there again.
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I'll, I'll, I will and I'll be able to make this exactly what I want it to be.
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And really I'm operating off of when we did the hypnosis or the you know kind of deep meditation as a group and my future self said you have to jump.
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If you want this life, you have to jump.
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And so I and every and like I just had that flashback to that episode this last week and I heard the voice jump You're, you have to jump.
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And I'm like okay, this is a jump for me, this is a jump Right, and I don't know if it's the end jump right.
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There could be many other you know things that I have to.
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I have to keep jumping, but for right now it's where I'm supposed to be and I know that, um, even when it feels uncomfortable and feels like I want to go back, you know yeah, no for sure.
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I think so, yeah, so that's been.
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I think we all have to get comfortable being uncomfortable.
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Um, yes, for sure.
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Funny because I just gave a reading um earlier this week to somebody and that was something that came up of getting comfortable being uncomfortable If you want change in your life.
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So, yep, it's hard.
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Yeah, it's definitely because you know I could have been comfy in my job for ever, really to be honest.
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So, yeah, that's a big, big thing that I've been navigating and yeah, so pass it on to Marlena.
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And yeah, so pass it on to Marlena.
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You're up next, come on down.
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No, I really don't want to.
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I've been doing a lot of work on myself.
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There have been speaking of roadblocks and things like that, a lot of that and so, because of manifestations and things that I've been working on, those blocks have been coming into play and I've been having to work through those and dealing with some of my not so great qualities, you know, and kind of working through that but also recognizing that there's been so much, I mean in my personal life, in my work life, and just so much going on.
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But one of the things that I've been trying to do in business is managing with more compassion and empathy and stuff like that.
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But I think I leaned way too much into that and so now I'm trying to find that balance of being not aggressive but stern.
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Now I'm trying to find that balance of being not aggressive but stern, you know, while still being compassionate and just trying to find that balance.
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And so you know, I've just been really working on balance and me and certain blocks, and it's been very difficult.
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I've also went through a phase of, yeah, fuck the spirituality shit, I'm fucking done with all of it.
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And you know I'm like I'm just going to go be an irresponsible, human and you know, do what I want to do and that's like the rebellious side of me.
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But then all of a sudden, you know, I find myself still making good decisions, and you know, and trying to be a good human and I'm like this fucking sucks.
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I'm all trying to be a good human and I'm like this fucking sucks.
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I'm all trying to be rebellious and shit, and it's not working and the goodness keeps creeping back in.
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Damn you, son of a bitch.
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So much easier just to be a rebel than all this good human shit, yeah, yeah.
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Yeah, so, yeah.
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So then you know, then I have to work through that and I'm like why can't I just be a bad person?
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Oh, because you have such a good heart, I'm like I just want to regress.
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I want to go back to being that person because it made things easier.
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It made things easier when I didn't care about what the consequences were going to be, or you know.
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Whatever you know, I didn't give a fuck about karma.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, so that's kind of I felt I've, I felt similar, Like, like I haven't done a ton of spiritual things.
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I mean, I I've had bigger things not bigger things, but big things on my plate, right, so there's not a ton of extra room for that.
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But I was like, oh, maybe I could just scrap it all, just like, and I'm like, and then like the next day I'm like what the fuck are you talking about?
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You can't scrap it all.
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Like you can't know what you know.
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You've come too far.
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Like what are you talking about?
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There's still so much more to learn.
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Like you know you're, you're here, for the long haul, so get used to it.
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Yeah, exactly, but I have been doing a lot more tarot readings for people that are just not like my best friend or, you know, those that are really close to me, so, which is a scary thing for me.
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That has always been tough for me because I'm like I'm a perfectionist and what if I don't get it right, and you know, and so kind of listening to what is and I say listen, but you know I'm listening to what I'm being told, or feeling what I'm feeling, and just like word vomiting it out versus holding it in and trying to think about it and say the right thing.
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I'm like I don't know if this fucking makes sense, but and you know, it's like, oh my God.
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So I've been doing that a lot more lately.
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In our episode with Kate Van Horn, I talked about how I was going to be doing tarot readings at my work retreat, so ended up doing that, which that for me, was scary as well.
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It was, you know, again, being getting comfortable, being uncomfortable.
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I was very uncomfortable with that because I was taking, you know, something very personal to me to something very professional, you know, like my personal life and my professional life and and melding those together.
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Um, but it was actually a lot of fun and it felt really good to allow people to see me.
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It felt really good to allow people to see me and to be able to, you know, not wear a mask or anything and be like, okay, well, this is who I am, and you know.
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And so that was.
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It was scary, but it was, it was empowering.
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So, yeah, that is a plus.
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And then one of the things that Vince and I have gotten back into doing is, every day, we try and find our highlight of the day, and so we discussed that at dinner, and so you know, like, I guess why I bring that up is because over the last few months, it's been really, really trying for me.
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But that has been my highlight of this time of working on myself is, you know, I was able to just really be myself and let people see a part of me that I maybe don't necessarily show, right, yeah, so that was, yeah, that was fun and we talked about this not on the show, obviously, but just in chit chat.
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This not on the show, obviously, but just in chit chat.
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And I'm just so proud of you because, again, you're doing these readings and you're starting to come out and be a little more like, okay, I can do this.
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You're stepping out of your comfort zone.
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You're reading people who are coworkers or maybe a friend.
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You know, it's not me, it's not Christy, it's not you know for yourself, so it's I can't read myself anyway no-transcript card of what I have to work on with me, and so, yeah, it's been really good.
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So I'm laughing because I'm remembering our conversation.
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We just recently interviewed a guest this morning.
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Oh yeah, the entire time I was seeing the aura of this person and going what the hell is going on?
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I've had a migraine for the last couple of days, and so I was talking with my mom and I was like I wonder if this is like bringing up, if it's more spiritual than me just being stressed out from work or whatever.
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It is my hormones or maybe a combination of all of that.
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But but yeah, so Can you still see our auras?
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We were just talking.
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I'm like, yeah, no, I'm just nonstop seeing like colors around everybody and I'm like, and I'm, my migraines are normally like ocular migraines where I'm able to, you know, and so I'm like, is it the migraine?
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And I was like I meanines where I'm able to, you know, and so I'm like, is it the migraine?
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And I was like I mean, I hope I don't walk around and just see colors all over the place, but well, maybe I do, I don't know.
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Yeah, I'm just going to roll with it.
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Me and guys are jealous that we can't see it.
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Well, do you want this?
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headache, that goes along with it.
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No, I've had.
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No, I've had plenty of cluster headaches.
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They're not fun.
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I'll pass on that.
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Yeah, I mean last night and I was laughing so hard with my mom because my dad was such a hypochondriac, and so yesterday, like my eyes start strooping and I'm like, uh, freaking out, thinking I'm having a stroke, because WebMD told me I was having a stroke but Mayo Clinic told me I was having a cluster headache.
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And then now that I'm seeing these colors, I'm like maybe it's more spiritual Absolutely, am I still a white yellowish?
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Yeah, does it stay the same?
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color or the auras change right, yeah, but right now that's what I'm seeing around you.
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But I'm also seeing like I feel like I'm on acid, because every time someone moves like I see tracks because of the colors that are like following me also.
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And it's been a long time since I've been on acid.
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I mean I think I was 16.
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So you're quite certain it's not acid was 16.
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So you're quite certain it's not acid.
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Pretty sure it's not acid.
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Maybe I should drop acid?
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I don't know.
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That's funny, I don't know, that's funny.
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Are we going to record it?
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No, she can't.
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Oh, it could be a YouTube one so you can actually see the video.
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What's funny was when I took acid.
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When I dropped acid, I was 16 and I knew nothing about it, and my friends were like, let's do this.
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I'm like okay, Not knowing that I would be up all night and I had a softball tournament the next day.
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So I was like, and so then they tell me.
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And so then I ended up having this horrible trip because like the sky's face morphed into the devil and like the walls were closing in on me and I was feeling claustrophobic and everything and so but it was just yeah, and so then I ended up going for a run in the middle of the night and I ended up running like five miles and I was like I never run five miles, like so then, you know, come time my dad comes, picks me up so that I could get ready for the softball game, I'm like I am fucked up, like how am I going to play this game?
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And so I'm like playing shortstop and balls are coming at me and I'm like I don't know what the fuck's going to happen here.
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So I was like you know, I didn't get much sleep last night.
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Can I just hit?
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So my coach pulled me out and I was just hitting but man, I went four for four because of the tracks.
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I was able to see when they were like throwing a curveball or a rise Advantage.
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I probably had one of my best hitting games that game, that's funny.
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But then I had to run and I was like I just ran five miles, like in the middle of the night.
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Am I going?
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fast.
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I feel like I'm going fast, but am I going fast?
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So, needless to say, I never dropped acid after that.
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No, there's that.
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That's the lesson of the story.
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Yes, no more acid.
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No more after that.
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That was like a fun little tangent.
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Yeah, that's what we do on the show.
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So, jamie, it's Jamie's turn.
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Now we're bringing it back.
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